Today, I realized why I need to take NoFap seriously and why you need to as well. I realized I need to do NoFap because I can’t even walk into a public hot tub without anyone around because i’m ashamed of myself. I have to sit in the back of the class and don’t speak up because I hide this dark secret. I have no friends, I lurk 4chan and reddit 24/7 and troll on Overwatch because of my low-esteem. I have become so desensitived emotionally that I realized I was laughing at a school shooting today, because I hoped that this beta-incel got revenge on the chads and stacy’s. I realized all of this… on Valentine’s day.
Checking all my social media, seeing every one of the people on snap at the bar or with women, myself… I wanted to be alone, I wanted to relax so I decide to go to the hot tub and I found myself waiting 2 hours for everyone to leave, all the couples there laughing and having fun for me to finally get it. I realize I am a prisoner to my mind and pmo, and after my dip, I came here writing to all of you who want to free yourself, unshackle your mind from your addiction that bleeds into so many things. Tonight, all of you who didn’t have dates, had no attention from women (I know this is why most people do NoFap, it isn’t the sole purpose) and stayed at home jacking off 3 times to the free porn on Phub…
Tonight, you, myself and everyone else must get serious. We have to beat this addiction, write, comment, scream, hit pillows, and make a plan of action for how you are going to win. We all found NoFap because something was wrong in your life, you aren’t truly happy.
Below, I will write the reasons why I am fighting. This is deeply important to me, because I am 20 years old and about to graduate and I need to conquer this addiction for me to be confident moving on in my transition to adult hood.
I feel like somewhere between an adult and a boy, I go to school, get good grades and study, but I still PMO play video games and haven’t been intimate with a woman because of my addiction.
I want to feel human, I am tired of being scared to go outside fearing what people think, taking my anger out on strangers on the internet and laughing when bad things happen to others. I know that porn is the cause of this, I was happy before I found it, and slowly it killed all of my emotion the deeper and darker the content became.
I want to get the feeling back in my penis and cure PIED, I have never had sex 100% before, always suffered from PIED or PE and I know it’s because the feeling in my pecker has withered away, I spanked it 3 times and I made sure to write down the sensation.. 3/10 stroking and 4/10 orgasm. I believe NoFap will cure this.
My most important reason is I want to cure social anxiety, I have never made it past 10 days but I know for a fact that when I was on day 7, my thoughts and confidence went up, I felt better about myself and when I relapsed I plummeted into a dark place for weeks.
I want to live, I want to have a social life and also help others, I am tired of being cold as I know inside my mind that I am not meant to be this way. I never was and I want to change for my parents and myself, I want to make myself proud.
Lastly, I want to be healthy. I want to be spiritually, mentally, and physically strong. I have recently lost 50 pounds and I want to go to the gym. I just need to get the plane in the air first, NoFap is the Number 1 priority. School is fine, but my health is extremely important as well.
Final note, please, I urge each and every one of you to comment and vent, I will reply to every comment and I am here for you guys. If you want to talk, please message me or if you need an accountability partner I am here.
Let’s conquer this together!!